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I have had PCOS for almost six years now & its awful I hate it so much!! It started when I stopped taking birth control at 19. There was a time when I didn't have periods but they returned about a year ago. But I gain weight easily, have acne, body hair, & I'm now losing the hair on my head. I have been shocked at the amount of hair i lose every time I brush it. I'm terrified I'm gonna get a bald spot. I don't know if I can live with being a hairy but bald headed women I'm horrified by that thought. I have had really long hair all my life & never cut it. But I'm thinking if it would be better to have it short. Thinking maybe it would work harder to grow more insted of longer. Iv tried to control this condition with diet & exercise but its not helping. So now I'm gonna go back on birth control to help balance out the hormones. Honesty I just wanna have my overy's removed but don't think they will till I'm older. I don't see why not there's a 75% chance I will never b able to have kids anyways. & besides being mentally unstable I dont wanna bring a child into this world with this curse especially alittle girl. It would break my heart to see her have to go threw this. Hating herself for something she can't control. It's not fare. It's still a long painful process till I'm accepting of this & love my self the way I am tho. It's not my fault its just genetics. Just need to keep this in mind when I'm feeling like hopeless.
fractalpterodactyl fractalpterodactyl
26-30, F
Jan 16, 2013