I recently found out that I have PCOS. I'm sure that i have had it for years but every time i would go to a Doctor they would draw blood samples and call me a few days later and tell me that everything was normal and that in order for my period to come back i needed to lose weight. I go 3-4 months with out a period and I go to the doctor they just tell me the same things.. One doctor actually took the time to do an ultrasound after i went to the ER for having extreme pelvic pain. The pain was so bad i could not stand up straight and had to miss work. When they did the ultra sound they found one cyst on my right ovary and told me not to worry about it that it should dissolve but because of the size i had the possibility of it making my ovary twist and i might lose it. They told me come back if the pain worsens, I never went back.. My periods were so random.And i had pain but i felt like no one wanted to help and i got tired of being told that everything was normal. How can a woman having her period every 3-4 months be normal? How can hair on my chin neck and chest b normal, I shaved my chin more than my ex husband shaved his... My ex husband and I wanted a baby so bad but because I couldn't get pregnant he started to grow away from me. He ended up having 2 babies by 2 different women which lead to our divorce. I couldn't even blame him for cheating... I couldn't give him the family he wanted. We tried for 4 years and i never got pregnant. I can see why he walked away. I feel like PCOS destroyed my marriage. And had someone took the time to help me Id have the family i wanted by now. I do believe things happen for a reason. I am remarried and my husband wants a family. I told him upfront about my issues getting pregnant and he said it doesn't matter to him but it hurts me so much to know that I'm the issue. I'm the reason i cant have kids. I'm so afraid that because of PCOS ill lose him. I love him more than anything and i would be so hurt to see him leave me like my ex did because i cant have kids... I see younger girls and ppl who don't even want babies get pregnant every day but me... I want this so bad an I cant get it... Why me? Why am i the one who cant have children. I know i possibly could but chances are its gonna be extremely difficult. I don't want to be a first time mom at 39... I just wish someone understood that this has completely took over my life and possible took away the chance for me to have what i want the most. A FAMILY..