Sponge Eating Wierdo

I'm 16 nearly 17 and since the beginning of primary school I've eaten sponge, when I can get it it's also cement, sand and fabric. When I was 7/8 I thought I kept it a secret but then in year 7, some of my friends used to start saying 'can you remember when you eat sponge?' Obviously, I disagreed and said I just picked at it but they still say it sometimes to this day, nobody knows I still do it, or atleast I don't think they do.
I thought I was just a freak and so I never thought anything of it, but when I did do research and found out about 'PICA' I thought maybe I actually have it, not sure if I do but it'd make sense.
I don't get regularly ill except from stomache cramps that make me practically double over, I'm not anorexic or obese or anything else and I feel fine most of the time, but, something i've read has scared me because it mentioned that this could kill you? Is this true? can it?
Now I'm really scared, I don't think it's a 'crave' because my mouth doesn't 'fill with saliva' like others have said, but, I do see and put it in my mouth.
I'm not sure, it's all really confusing but can somebody give me as much information/adivce as possible?
I don't think my family knows about this and I really don't want to go to a doctor because everybody would just say that I'm attention seeking because that's just what the world is like, I know it.
So, can anybody offer me any advice? & tell me if it's seriously damaging me? I doubt it though because it's been happening for over 10 years and I feel ok?
sixteengoingonsix sixteengoingonsix
18-21, F
2 Responses Oct 7, 2012

you're basically me in two years time, i am so afraid of looking for help or advice because things spread and i would look like a freak. my parents think im making a big deal over nothing

I think you should watch this: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=V1q7WXs4kSs
Part 2:https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tyMXXYdA-8o&feature=channel&list=UL

Basically, when you say you have stomach cramps, that scares me. That is the primary sign of what's called a bezoar. A bezoar is an accumulation of material that happens in the gut. Bezoars obstruct your system, meaning that your gut could eventually rupture and/or you'll be accumulating fecal matter. Both could kill you.

I'm telling you. You ARE in danger. I almost guarantee that you have a bezoar. Please go check it out. A lot of the times people say the feel fine, and then suddenly die. I don't want you to commit an act of Darwinism. Please go check it out.