I Have Pmdd

Pmdd....ruining Any Potential Relationships.

By: beautifuleyes87

Written on June 29th, 2012

Hi, I'm new here and was recently diagnosed with PMDD. Truth be told, I'm sure I've had it for a while. It was mistaken for major depression and I've been on all sorts of anti-depressants. I'm now on YAZ instead of anti-depressants but it works only 50% of the time it seems like. Today, for the first time I thought about suicide. I would NEVER think about this usually. It's like day and night. I get so depressed and needy a couple days before my period. What's worse is that my PMDD symptoms seem to be getting a lot worse and I'm also getting it more frequently (twice a month). I can't live like this anymore. I've ruined two amazing relationships because when I began to experience pmdd I became so vulnerable and needy towards them. I became psychotic (texting all the time, crying, telling them I was going to kill myself if they didn't talk to me). This isn't typical of me. When I finally get my period the symptoms of craziness disappear and I feel like me again. Now, I pray to get my period. It's getting worse. Please help. I don't know what to do. I've tried everything: exercising more, eating better, cutting caffeine, alcohol, sugar, gluten free diets, anti-depressants in addition to yaz. I can't take it anymore.

By: beautifuleyes87

Age: 22-25 , Female

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5 responses

Monkeymum

I totally understand. I have told my partner he is better dead, wished his car of a bridge to his face, throw every mistake or comments thrown back in his face on the bad days and then begg and become desperate to say sorry to the point of obsession. Phone, email, messages... I cant control it.
He has left now. 6 wks........
And says there is no way this new diagnosis can explain my venomous comments, that i seem to truly believe.
Maybe it is too late, which is a devasting concept as we have 3 yr old twins and have been blissfully happy.
i am in counselling now learning cbt and my.past, vit b6, iron, mag and calcium. Anti depression tabs, yasmin and anti anxiety.( 5 weeks in) I am trying to be better for me and for the babies.

Just trying to control the begging and apologising as its not working or healthy.

Sep 29, 2012
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Goddess65

I never feel like myself during pmdd.

I wish I could tell you something that would make it stop.

Have you tried therapy?

Aug 26, 2012
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timekiller

Ditto, babe. Ditto.

Aug 3, 2012
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stevenbarrow

i have recently come to the conclusion a have pmdd ait started a very long time ago i feel anyway, i feel really low like i dont matter and that my boyfriend of 8 years (bles him) i have so many times accused him of not wanting to be in the same room as me crying to the point i cant stopand maybe the world would be better without me and figity and irritated and really snapping at those close to me sometimes i just cant cope with being alone and feel very needy and unwanted by theworld when i get to work i cant handle it on that day and get imotional and dont no why it was very scary thinking i was crazy every 3 weeks and reading these has helped me i had no idea about pmdd untill today i feel i can go on to be happy and no longer isolate myself now i understand it thankyou all so much and every one out there who has to live with this its took me 12 years to figure out whats wrong with me and theres nothing wrong with me now i know im not the only one crazy lady....xxxxxx

Jul 14, 2012
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Love21562

i understand your feelings =( i see a therapist for my anxiety and she has helped me a lot with my pmdd. i know it can be hard on relationships. im engaged now, but when i was dating him i almost broke up with him once a month. idk why, but he understands it.. i hope you find happiness! add me if you ever want to chat about it cuz i know what you're going thru. good luck and God bless

Jun 29, 2012
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