Apparently I'm Not Nuts - Yee Ha

I had post natal depression after my 4th child - never had it before - it came CRASHING in on me - debilitating in a way i never believed possible.  Once i started on meds it helped.  Even 2 or 3 months after taking the meds i said to the doc - yea its much better but the symptoms come back even stronger on the 5-7 days before my period.  he just shrugged.  During that week i become NUTS - seriously - paranoid, weepy, suicidal, homicidal, aggressive, moody, feel self hatred and loathing and can sleep for 15 hrs a day.  On the day my period arrives its like the sun has come out after a storm.  So, I have basically diagnosed myself and am talking to the doc about additional meds that may help.  She ( a woman this time) said an oral contraceptive may help or a coil as this would stop my periods totally for 5r yrs. Dunno what the next step is but today i am going to write my self a little letter to read when i crash - hoping this may reach me when no one else can

hiddensun hiddensun
41-45, F
Feb 18, 2010