My Story.

Hi. I'm a female who has poland syndrome on the left side of her body. I guess that makes me a really special snowflake considering it affects males more than females and is usually on the right side, not the left.
Ever since I started puberty at the age of 8, one breast has been significantly larger than the other- this is the only way that PS affects me-. My doctor and my parents said it would even out over time. It's been almost 8 years since then, it still hasn't.
I've hated my body ever since this was noticable. I've struggled with depression and self mutilation. I guess I shouldn't say that in the past tense, since I still am. I can't stand looking in the mirror. I know everyone will judge me if they find out. In the very few sexual experiences I've been involved in, either the person has played it off like they did not notice, or I kept my top on. I'm so ashamed.

I've never actually been diagnosed by a doctor for PS, though I'm sure this is what I have. Although I think I have all of my pectoral muscles, so I'm not totally sure. If you all could help distinguish that for me, that'd be great.
I think I would like to get corrective surgery because of how it mentally affects me, although I don't think I would feel like - myself. Like I wouldn't be the same person anymore. Especially because I don't want to have a fake matrtial put inside ky chest. I would like, if anything, to have a fat transfer surgery. But I'm not sure if that's possible. Again, help with that would be great.

I hope other people post on here so that I can hear others' stories. That's all folks!
Ivy96 Ivy96
May 24, 2012