I Have Plaque PsoriasisWell, I am 24 years old, I never had psoriasis until i was about 20 or 21. My mother has it , but has ever had it as bad as I do. I have it on my hands, legs, and feet. People look at me as if they are going to catch some kind of diease from me. I work in an assisted living facility and when the families come in they are afraid to even shake my hand. I feel disgusting..my husband tells me I am beautiful everyday, but that doesn't make the pain of knowing how ugly this makes me feel go away.
Sometimes the pain is unbearable...I can't use good smelling lotions or soaps because it burns too bad. Can't wear anything black or made of rubber like my favorite pair of shoes. The steroids they had me on caused me to become a Type 2 diabetic and now i have to take oral meds for that. I just feel so alone in this, because no one really knows what myself and others with this disease go through on a daily basis. I have tried just about everything from tanning to using coal tar...i just don't understand how this uncontrolable pest can make me feel so down in the dumps on a daily basis.
It's not like i can afford medical treatment to help with the flare ups. It's really awful. I have medical insurance through my work, but they don't cover dermatologist..crazy I know the one thing I need it for.
I just wish I could get over this and quit being so embarrassed, but its gross. i wouldn't want anyone to have to look at me in a pair of shorts with my legs all broke out, or even have them looking at my hands, but I can't hide those in the middle of the summer.
Thanks everyone for reading my pity story...Just had to throw some feelings out there.
layclou86 22-25, F 8 Responses 1 Mar 28, 2011