Okay so last year around April I had a major stressful surgery. It's a long story, but the surgery left me feeling depressed and lost, so i decided to start my own spiritual journey and to discover my spirit guides. I felt like I needed to achieve a higher and better state of mind so I started meditation to help myself and to communicate with my guides.
During this time I was put on a series of birthcontrols (treating Endometriosis) due to this surgery. All of them made me feel like I was going insane! They made me depressed, anxious, and paranoid. Before all of this I was a happy and optemistic person so this was very abnormal for me! And by the time I started college this year I was on my third birthcontrol pill.
When October came around I had been trying to connect with my spirit guides more and more. I started asking them to please say something to me Anything! because I felt so lost.
The night after I was feeling particularly low, I wasn't doing anything at all (just surfing the web) when all of a sudden I heard a raspy whisper say my name! It was as if someone came right up to my ear and said it. It even felt like someone was there! My roommate didn't notice a thing, of course, and I ran into the bathroom and started crying.
When I called my mom the next day we decided that we'd had enough and that I was going off the pill, and I thought that would be the end of it. But when I looked up the side effects for that medication it said absolutely nothing about auditory or even visual hallucinations. And It's been 7 months since I stopped taking the pill, but I still think I might be hearing things like voices. (trust me I've don't all the research I can on this medication and my dad's a doctor, and at this point this medication should be completly out of my system and not effecting me at all)
So I figured at that time that if it wasn't the medication then maybe it's because I had been asking my spirit guides to say something to me. I thought maybe I was harrassing them or something so I said that I was sorry and that if they were speaking to me that I wasn't ready yet and to please stop.
Now this loud raspy voice only happened once, but to this day I'm still hearing extremely soft whispers sometimes that I can hardly make out. Mostly I think they're saying my name "Kaytie" but I think one once asked "can you hear me?". but they're so quiet I can't even tell.
I'm just hoping someone could shed some light on this for me: Am I making myself THINK I'm hearing these things, but I'm really not hearing anything at all? Was it that I actually DID make contact with my spirit guides and now they want to talk more? Is my room haunted and just likes to pick on me instead of my roommate lol? Or am I just plain crazy?
Is this Clairaudience?