I Really Need To Talk.Hi, am 20yrs old and for my whole life, I have seen spirits. There are these things I see that I call 'shadows' and they are basicly white-ish lines that swirl and take forms (some I can recognise like people, some I cant.) I call them shadows because when I was very young, I pointed to one and asked my Mom what it was. She couldn't see what I see so she thought I was pointing at a shadow on the wall. She Said "It's a shadow." From that moment on , thats what I called them. At age two, my mom got my eyes checked. I had 20/20 vision and there was nothing wrong with my sight. When I was little, I would say weird things. In kindergarden, I played a shepard for my christian school play. My Mom walked in my room (I didn't notice her) and saw me in my costume, looking at my reflection and spinning around. I had a peaceful smile on my face and I stopped spinning, looked at my reflection and said "I can't wait to be back there." At that moment my Mom asked me "Back where, Carlee?" I jumped, surprised, than became confused and replied: "I don't know."
As I got older I got a dibilating auto immune disease. The main symptom is pain but at age eight, my doctors couldn't find what was wrong with me so, believing it was in my head, they sent me to psycho therapy. I was evaluated and shown that I have no mental illness and later the doctors realised that it was NOT in my head and I was indeed very sick. Why I mention this is because I have been evaluated so I can conclude that I am sane.
Through my journey with my disease I have gone to many psychics and spiritual healers. They seem to feel that I have psychic abilities, am an old soul, and that spirits are drawn to me. Ine woman said that I see so many spirits because my soul is like a light and it draws spirits that didn't go to the light in. Someone else also told me (and this scares me) that in a past life I put many people to death, but I thought I was doing the right thing. After he said that, I stopped all I was doing, cleared my mind, and apologized to any and all I had hurt and told them I hoped they could pass on. At that time, many of the spirits left.
I have also had angels talk through me to give advice to those in need.
Alos, there are things I just know taht I shouldn't. I now believe that in that one life where I put people to death, I was a doctor in an insane asylum. That terrifies and sickens me because I am a very caring person.
So please, if anyone has any comments, thoughts or suggestions I really would appreciate it. I have friends I can talk to about most stuff, but not this. Thank you!
carlee1212 18-21, F 14 Responses 4 Jul 6, 2012