I'm So Sick And Tired Of Being Me.

It hurts. I just want it to stop. I want to escape my head and be able to enjoy life.

I want what makes me hhappy. I hate Taco Bueno. I love my grandmother, and she's great, but couldn't she just drive the extra miles to Taco Bell instead? There's one of the way home. Taco Bell makes me happy with their Doritos Locos tacos. I really wanted one.

I just feel like every time there's something that can serve as a "pick me up", no matter how little, turns out to be impossible.

I can't drive because I'll hallucinate, have a flashback, my anxiety is too bad, and I don't trust myself to not attempt hurting myself in any way.

I want to scream. I've been depressed for almost four years, and I have been diagnosed with MDD, PTSD and anxiety for almost one year. Haven't I suffered enough?
prettysweetly prettysweetly
18-21, F
Jan 13, 2013