I Have Ptsd, Depression and Anxiety
I am 30 weeks pregnant and dealing with high anxiety , for which my doctor prescribed me hydroxizine so I can eat and calm down. I hav been losing weight and having panic attacks. I don't like the medication they gave me and I only take it when absolutely necessary. I am debating on whether or not to take it right now.
I was fine until my fiancé came home from work for lunch because he "accidentally" took my phone to work. I make us sandwiches and sat down to eat and he came in a few bites into my sandwich. Suddenly my appetite was gone because his presence was stressing me out. He came through the door huffing and puffing and complaining of a toothache. He couldn't find his ibuprofen. he then went out back to collect our vacuum saying he needed it for his second job. He slammed the sliding door shut. He didn't eat his sandwich. Then he told me he couldn't give me money for some bills because he spent his whole paycheck already, but I don't see the evidence of where all the money went. Where did it go? I think to myself. But pretend like it doesn't matter. Then he grabs his favorite work out DVDs and says he's giving it to a friend. I'm like, "what friend". One of his friends at work, has a kid who wants it. I remark that's pretty generous giving away stuff like that. He said its a trade for a drill he needs at work. Then he's out the door.
So in my mind he is cheating. I'm thinking.... Missing money, odd behavior, on his iPod for 40 minutes in the bathroom this morning. What the ****. I'm pregnant. I need to pay bills. he's out cheating spending money we need on some ***** who he's cheating with. Am I going to far in thinking this? Or do I need to take a chill pill and go along with whatever he does? talking to him doesn't work because he threatens abandonment any time I start asking questions. And I really can't handle that stress because I will stress myself into preterm labor.
I was fine until my fiancé came home from work for lunch because he "accidentally" took my phone to work. I make us sandwiches and sat down to eat and he came in a few bites into my sandwich. Suddenly my appetite was gone because his presence was stressing me out. He came through the door huffing and puffing and complaining of a toothache. He couldn't find his ibuprofen. he then went out back to collect our vacuum saying he needed it for his second job. He slammed the sliding door shut. He didn't eat his sandwich. Then he told me he couldn't give me money for some bills because he spent his whole paycheck already, but I don't see the evidence of where all the money went. Where did it go? I think to myself. But pretend like it doesn't matter. Then he grabs his favorite work out DVDs and says he's giving it to a friend. I'm like, "what friend". One of his friends at work, has a kid who wants it. I remark that's pretty generous giving away stuff like that. He said its a trade for a drill he needs at work. Then he's out the door.
So in my mind he is cheating. I'm thinking.... Missing money, odd behavior, on his iPod for 40 minutes in the bathroom this morning. What the ****. I'm pregnant. I need to pay bills. he's out cheating spending money we need on some ***** who he's cheating with. Am I going to far in thinking this? Or do I need to take a chill pill and go along with whatever he does? talking to him doesn't work because he threatens abandonment any time I start asking questions. And I really can't handle that stress because I will stress myself into preterm labor.
Age:
31-35
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Female
