Nerves Of Cobwebs
You know, I don't even remember if I've posted here before. I have such a wonderful brain. I really hate posting in these types of threads . I usually try to keep my pity posts to my blog. I just had to speak on the phone twice and I was testing an online game and somone tried to talk to me and it set offa panic attack. I have better days than others and the past couple of days it's been a battle with my brain and nervous system.
The low down is I have PTSD, chronic severe anxiety, panic d/o, coupled with brain and nerve damage. I don't take psych drugs per se. i have neurontin and valium although I usually only take the valium if i leave the house which is almost never. I was just starting to get hypnotherapy when my BF lost his job and so I am back to nothing. I live alone, my BF is in TX.
The past two days I've been battling panic attacks over the smallest things. I am what I call "potentialophobic". I fear anything that has the potential to harm me. It was a long road getting this way.
between the phone calls, the game and my financial situation I'm almost petrified right now, shaking and it's really hard to maintain coherant thought. Don't let the post fool you, I've been sitting here for 35 minutes trying to make it. Usually I can override to an extent and cling to a routine and control my thoughts better but I'm having one of those times that i can't. I keep slipping into a child mind.
3rd phone call. ugh my daughter all 3 times and she stresses me out.