Gotta Love Cars..

Hi there...  I'm new to this sort of thing so....

I was an anxious child, and have always been worried about others....About 30 yrs ago I had a car accident... but I have had a couple more since.. About 8 weeks ago I had an accident that was different to the others.... I could see it coming but was helpless to change the outcome....  Since it has happened I have no wish to engage with the outside world (except at work - when I'm there I have a job to do and I don't have any emotional involvement).  You see, I'm just going through the motions, trying to be happy for everyone else around me - but every now and again, I feel really angry - it just wells up from wherever it comes from - then it goes away and I'm back in my bubble where it is safe - I am trying to keep myself busy so that I don't have to think - but today I spoke with an ex partner who I cared about but our relationship was never going to be - because of his issues... I woke up feeling really really sad - the gut wrenching type and am now feeling desolate and alone - while at the same time trying to act normally - I have no self confidence (didn't have much to start with anyway) and I feel this well of sadness that seems to go on forever.  At other times I feel protected by my 'bubble' where no one can get in.....I've been told I have ptsd but instead of feeling better, I'm feeling one seems to understand and I don't understand some of the feelings - I know the logic but just have trouble coping with the emotions... can anyone tell me if this is normal.. and more importantly.. will it ever get any better...

shabod shabod
46-50, F
1 Response Nov 13, 2009

Sounds normal for ptsd. I don't know if it'll get better, but I pray for you that it does.