After My DivorceAfter my husband divorced me,back in 2005, I couldn't watch TV shows or movies that had to do with marriage, divorces, couples fighting, or even weddings. I still look away when I see people kissing on TV.. though I feel sad when I see couples walking hand in hand out in public.
This was when I was told I have PTSD. I have many family members who had gotten divorced and shared that it was very painful process. Little did I know how painful it could get until I experienced it. I had to erase all those 6 years of memories of my husband. I couldn't look at certain landmarks- such as his former apartment where I met him, it hurt too much.
Last night I had a bad dream about my husband again, and I have no idea where this came from. Every time I see him, he start acting like a long lost friend and thinks I want him back. He's a die-hard jerk!
Haha.. what a joke! HE divorced me in the first place. We tried reconciling 5 times after that, but it didn't work out. He was too dang maniplative and an alcoholic. I flat out want nothing to do with any guy who drinks!
But now I'm in my early 40's, I often think about dating again, but I am too scared to try again. I am afraid of getting hurt and being taken advantage of!
noaht43 41-45, T 4 Responses 2 Jun 26, 2012