I Have Ptsd
Lately, I often wondered if that old lunatic of a former neighbor knows where I live?
I'm still traumatized for what he had done to me. Made noises round the clock until I couldn't stand it anymore. Making my room vibrate all the time. Knowing he's watching every move I make. Knowing what I do in my home or what I say to myself.
A few weeks ago I was taking a nap and I kept hearing these strange sounds. I couldn't tell whether I was hearing voices again or he was nearby and had a way to get to me?
Maybe I'm paranoid..and I have every reason to be. I worried that that neighbor could still see me and I have no way of proving it.
However I'm very glad I no longer live below that lunatic. I have plenty of privacy. And I can do whatever I like.
I still struggle with the flashbacks. I get uncomfortable and sad when I'm reminded of that neighbor. It doesn't matter what it is.
It hurts to remember them. Yet I try to move on and remind myself that he's not around anymore.
I'm still traumatized for what he had done to me. Made noises round the clock until I couldn't stand it anymore. Making my room vibrate all the time. Knowing he's watching every move I make. Knowing what I do in my home or what I say to myself.
A few weeks ago I was taking a nap and I kept hearing these strange sounds. I couldn't tell whether I was hearing voices again or he was nearby and had a way to get to me?
Maybe I'm paranoid..and I have every reason to be. I worried that that neighbor could still see me and I have no way of proving it.
However I'm very glad I no longer live below that lunatic. I have plenty of privacy. And I can do whatever I like.
I still struggle with the flashbacks. I get uncomfortable and sad when I'm reminded of that neighbor. It doesn't matter what it is.
It hurts to remember them. Yet I try to move on and remind myself that he's not around anymore.
By:
spunkyblue
Age:
41-45
,
Female
