I'm Deeply Traumatized (journal Poem)

Don't know what it was that happened to you, but I still totally get what you're trying to say. I know, because I've been there too. Something that hurt and shocked me so bad it makes me sick just thinking of it. Like you, I can't talk about it too. Every time I try, I end up in a sort of "panic attack".
I don't know whether people around me have been trying to be supportive, or not. It's impossible to tell. That kind of makes you feel isolated, doesn't it? And, what makes it worse is the constant feeling of "maybe I did something to cause it", "maybe I deserved it".
There are times when I've tried to write about it. I have a small book of poetry, and I'm starting my own "blog". Not sure if that will eventually free me from what I feel now. I guess it depends on whether I ever find the courage to get it all out!
Your poem is heartfelt and honest. So many people seem to have lost touch with that nowadays. We are all supposed to learn from our experiences, but many people are so fake, I doubt they can even be honest with themselves.
It takes a rare courage and level of integrity to bare your soul. You have both, and that's a good start. At least if you recognise your own errors, you can begin to sort them out. You may not be able to change other people, and sometimes they may be the cause of your troubles. Stay away from those kinds of people, and concentrate on making yourself the best you can be.
Best wishes -
Elaine.

Don't know what it was that happened to you, but I still totally get what you're trying to say. I know, because I've been there too. Something that hurt and shocked me so bad it makes me sick just thinking of it. Like you, I can't talk about it too. Every time I try, I end up in a sort of "panic attack".
I don't know whether people around me have been trying to be supportive, or not. It's impossible to tell. That kind of makes you feel isolated, doesn't it? And, what makes it worse is the constant feeling of "maybe I did something to cause it", "maybe I deserved it".
There are times when I've tried to write about it. I have a small book of poetry, and I'm starting my own "blog". Not sure if that will eventually free me from what I feel now. I guess it depends on whether I ever find the courage to get it all out!
Your poem is heartfelt and honest. So many people seem to have lost touch with that nowadays. We are all supposed to learn from our experiences, but many people are so fake, I doubt they can even be honest with themselves.
It takes a rare courage and level of integrity to bare your soul. You have both, and that's a good start. At least if you recognise your own errors, you can begin to sort them out. You may not be able to change other people, and sometimes they may be the cause of your troubles. Stay away from those kinds of people, and concentrate on making yourself the best you can be.
Best wishes -
Elaine.

Thank you for writing this poem. I understand.
-Lobo6

Hey I'm new on this site and have nobody to talk too. I like your poem!