Spousal Emotional AbuseI suffer from PTSD due to spousal emotional abuse. I was consistently compared to other women. I am intelligent, fit and attractive. I am a former nurse and school teacher. I have been married 3 times and currently am living with a man whom I love deeply.
After my divorces, in two instances, I discovered pornographic material they had left behind, and in one marriage, I discovered it during the marriage.
My current partner and I have been together for a little over a year. He knows of my PTSD and tries very hard to understand and be sensitive to me.
Seven months ago, on his computer, I discovered some websites he visited that contained bikini clad women and on his Facebook news feed, it is a constant flow of nude pictures that his "friends" post. He does hide the pictures, and in a few cases, has hidden those people from his news feed. I call it his "nude feed".
A few times recently, he has read articles on some websites (he sits right next to me) that show side pictures of bikini clad women and/or a lot of boobs and cleavage.
I have talked to him about this and he said he "wasn't thinking" and that he barely "notices" those pictures and has tried to reassure me that it means nothing to him, they don't affect him. I, however, don't see it that way.
When we go out in public, we live in South West Florida, the women down here dress inappropriately, showing a lot of cleavage and tight shorts. It makes me want to run and hide from him.
I just can't talke my reactions anymore. My PTSD is moderate to severe. Please offer some advice.