I developed Post Traumatic Stress Disorder(PTSD) from the events of my parent's divorce and in the aftermath of my father's divorce from my stepmother. The circumstances of those events were entrenched in secrecy, lies, alcoholism, and abuse. My father was the functional alcoholic who worked for the county and the Navy reserves. My stepmother, after providing for my sister and I during the time my father had to go to Hawaii after the 11th of September, 2001 turned from being nice to being the complete opposite. One minute she was nice and the next she was not. It is not certain as to whether my Dad knew this was going on between her and I. She was never like this with my sister nor my stepsister. However, she treated me and my stepbrother so horribly. She stole money from me, called me the ***** of Babylon after I got raped at 14, tried to kick me out for being a member of the gothic subculture, but let my sisters do whatever the hell they wanted.
There was one instance where I was working up in the mountains as a botanist for the United States Forest Service and I was on my way home. I saw a horrific car accident and help had not arrived yet. Just as I stopped to call for help, I see a young man in the passenger seat smashed up in the car...covered in his own blood. Someone checked his vitals the whole time. I stayed and watched for help and to make sure the driver, who was in catatonic shock, did not go ape **** crazy. I called my parents to let them know I would be running late because of this accident. Luckily I was not directly involved in this crash but I still wanted to tell them. After I told the The Highway Patrol officer what I had seen, he told me I could go home to my family not long after he arrived. My parents did not call back. By the time I got home, I found them getting **** faced drunk along with my sisters. I feel a tremendous amount of guilt for believing their lies and putting up with their abuses against me. I have the other classic symptoms of PTSD that affected me long after that horrid **** of a stepmother left my life. My sisters got to move on with their lives and continue doing the same old stupid **** they were doing before. I will never forgive that woman for what she did to me.
kathleenea kathleenea
Aug 17, 2014