If I may, I wanted to say thank you for reading this post. Serving God is a fascinating and a wonderful experience.
With that said, I am certain we all have our challenges. I wanted to encourage you to continue to fight strong for the Lord. Life presents many challenges. Please remember that your mind provides you with more power than you probably will ever use. I am in no position to tell anyone what to do but I have found it helpful to continue to fill your mind with great Godly thoughts, commit to memory excellent but timely scriptural passages and LOVE that is expressed to others and is felt deeply from within. I LOVE YOU!!
Maybe we can pray for each other. Sometimes when we pray for others, our prayers are HEARD. Please continue to seek God out on your own by searching through His Word.
May God be with You