Life feels like walking on a tight rope... I'm constantly trying to remain balanced, holding a pole with essentially work on one end and play on the other and I am in the middle walking, wiggling, muscles shaking and jaw clenched holding this pole to keep from falling off. Is this nirvana? (The middle way)... I find myself often swaying from left to right, when I away one way or another too much that is what causes stress, a nervous feeling in my stomach like the feeling you get when you are about to fall or when you are on a roller coaster and your stomach goes up to your heart and you are weightless. Infatuation gives me this weightless feeling, throws me off this middle path, clouds my mind, gives me so much nervousness that I loose myself in the moment... Random thoughts and realizations I am learning more and more as life goes on.
26-30, F
Aug 28, 2014