So Good, It Hurts

I've been having dreams which center around select feelings for a few years now.  These dreams will focus on a particular feeling/emotion and just magnify it as the dream progresses. I think the first one was when I was 19.

I was in the house I grew up in, being introduced to a woman by someone I know. There was something happening at the house, probably a party or just a family gathering...I can't remember anyone else (including the one introducing me) except the woman, but even so, this person had no face in the dream. As soon as she appeared in the dream I felt attracted to her. As I moved closer to her, the feeling deepened and began to feel overwhelming. Not as a form of lust, there was no hint of sexual attraction, it was just pure devotion. I felt like the feeling was solidifying within me, taking form and consuming me. I don't think I can properly describe anything further without repeating myself...or making up words, but after the dream ended I still felt the same overwhelming devotion. The object of that devotion, the woman I had fallen so deeply in love with, had disappeared, so I cried. I was so confused with what had just happened, I just sat there and cried for what felt like hours. I still can't understand how a dream could get to me like that.

I know it doesn't sound like much of a nightmare, I've definitely felt worse emotions than love in a dream state. But this one, above all else, keeps me up at night.

 

Erutrevo Erutrevo
22-25, M
2 Responses Feb 24, 2009

Not all of them...I have the nice, normal dreams. I guess I just let these other ones get to me too much. Sorry if that last comment sounded kinda snappy...Feel free to analyse, god knows I do. <br />
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I've been trying to experiment with them but they pop up too randomly and of course I have no memory of other dreams while in the dream state, so it's not much help. So yeah, any outside perspective would be welcome.

I don't like the idea of my dreams being able to create such exaggerated versions of already existing emotions. I can safely say that I've never experienced anything that powerful before, and the fact that the scenario wasn't even real only makes me question my feelings that ARE based on real events. It cheapens the things I feel in my waking life.