Oh My God.

i was "sleeping"- well i was trying to- and i was in my thought train. my mother unlocked the door- since it was locked- and than it cut my heart. i was like ow that hurt. it seriously felt like a knife cut your heart open. she scared me to death and i was panicing. i noticed that i couldnt calm down so i tried to calm down. it left me open.

i felt the same everyday, and it hurts so much because i cant bear it anymore. my heart is left open and i cant close it.