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I Was Diagnosed With Schizoaffective Disorder But Closure Isn't Satisfying.

I have had focusing problems since my prepreteen years and i recently switched psychiatrists to help me out (my grades were suffering severely due to lack of focus and memory). i usually black out when i go to appointments so i forgot what or why i was there and i ended up getting diagnosed with schizoaffective disorder. the doctor kept convincing me that it would help me focus and they obviously didnt.

this wouldn't be much of a problem, but i planned to join the military, but i cant because the meds she prescribed would be an automatic dq from the service. i looked into sza and it does nail most of my symptoms on the head perfectly, but i dont hallucinate.... or at least i dont think i do.

i am very paranoid and socially awkward in public. to throw in a colorful metaphor. each word i say feels like yelling ''bomb'' in a crowded airport. i cant really function at parties and social events. i have found people who almost have everything in common with me but it never felt correct to engage them in conversation, inevitably causing me to end up not being friends with them. i also feel like im being watched all the time and that the whole world is in sync against me, or that im driving in the opposite lane of everyone else mt4cly. i find it nearly improssible to inquire for a job without feeling threatened, and i dont have the focus span for college and i cant join the military because they see all mental disorders as a threat when clearly im no harm to others. i havent begun to list my awkward problems but im typing this from a phone so i cant edit what i type.

if anyone out there has sza please message me im not a mutant but i never leave my house i need help and my pdoc refuses to help. im losing my grip on reality. is there even any chance that the pdoc could be wrong on the diagnosis i feel like ive burned all bridges and my paranoid self marely acknowledges symptoms.
thaderane thaderane 18-21, M 5 Responses Oct 13, 2011

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i also have schiczoaffective disorder. im a 31 year old male with two kids. annd about 5 years ago i thought my whole world was crashing down around me. hearing voices, paranoid the cops were after me all the time, confused about the simplest things. plus i drank alot and did drugs. but now im clean, yet im homless living in my car bec. no one was supporting me and i cant really take care of myself with out some assistance. keep your hear up. ive been living in my car for 5 months and this morning my mother agreed to pay my rent and electric bill for a year some i can hopfully recieve disability benifits. take your meds and just make the best of it. i believe people with this illness can succed in life. this has given me hope. maybe someone or something can give yoou some hope.

I alsno suffer from sza disorder. many years of trying out meds and going off meds and finally found something that worked for me. I suffer from delusions, audio, visual and tactile hallucinations when I don't take meds.



it has been narrowed down to one single voice in my head from taking risperidone. i only use 2mgs a day, but the meds supress the delusional thinking and that has come as a releif.



I agree that you should file for disability and get a disability lawyer. they generally take a percentage of your back pay (they back pay to the time of your accident.) you may have to see a judge regarding your condition.



i was also disappointed when i couldn't go into the military. i understand

Shilo R. 39, Female

Washington state

I dont quite understand what its like to not have delusional thoughts. Im not really sure just how these meds are supposed to help. I dont hallucinate.... I think.

When you have delusional thinking it is sometimes hard to recognize. sometimes its paranoia, sometimes it is a beleif in something irrational or untrue, like beleiving you are telepathic or that a stranger is in love with you.

I had a lot of irrational behavior and got into many situations that were bad because of delusional thinking. Now that my beleif centers in my brain are not goint haywire, i no longer am convinced that my hallucinations are telling me the truth. like i said, it's a releif.

Hey Thad, what's your update, Hun?

i have been put on lotuda, and its hard to take it because it has to be taken with 500 calories, and right before bedtime. Its killing my metabolism, and if i still hold any chance at joining the forces, then this will not help. Also more notably the medicine puts me in an unusual state where death feels better. It doesn't hurt, but it keeps me from sleeping, it amplifies my nerve twitches and makes me feel more uncomfortable in my skin, and whilst on it i get so irritable i cant even do really anything, no gaming, no homework, no lying down, no surviving. Its an awful feeling worse than pain. The meds that counteract those meds dont seem to have effect. Annd im afraid to take anymore of the medicine because that feeling is really bad. Im in limbo again.

I take drugs that are for Schizoaffective Disorder for depression. I do not have the disease but the drugs certainly work for depression.

Schizoaffective Disorder is a serious disorder, but with proper treatment and supports you may be able to function in society successfully. I don't know if you've applied for Social Security Income and Social Security Disability, but I would recommend you do it asap! You can do it online. It can take up to two years to be accepted so you really should do it now and just submerge yourself into therapies. Plus you will get back pay on the SS so please look into this asap.



I would also get your name on the Section 8 Housing List immediately. That takes years to finally receive. Worst case scenario, you get well enough that you don't need these services. But if you still need help, you will at least have it.



If you live in the US, you can apply for behavioral health services within your State. Google your "county" and then also add "Regional Behavioral Health Authority" to get the phone number to call for an intake appointment to be assessed for mental and behavioral health help. Regional Behavioral Health Authority is called your local RBHA (pronounced Reeba). Your RBHA provides mental health services such as psychiatrist visits, medication (for psyche only), numerous different forms of therapies, housing possibilities, Vocational Rehab - so you can go to school and collect Social Security at the same time, and so much more. If you need help, just message me. I've been down this road with a few people and would love to help you out.



Jeremiah 29:11 "For I know the plans I have for you," Says the Lord. "Plans to prosper you and not harm you. Plans to give you hope and a future."