Its A Deadly Disease.

Schizophrenia is a word people cringe at. It's something people run very far from and hide from its very existence. I get upset because there are few people who truely understand what we go through. I mean people just put this label on us, give us some medicine and wish us the best? They dont want anything to do with it, because in all reality no one knows much about it.

It's a deadly disease.

And a word that makes people cringe.

It sucks most days. It sucks pretty much all the time. And I dont know what to do about it. I am living this life that I have no control of. I'm desprerate to get control. I'm desperately needing something or someone but I dont know what.
CaughtInLimbo CaughtInLimbo 18-21, F 3 Responses Jul 26, 2012

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I see several parallels between your battle with Schizophrenia and mine with depression (especially in the concluding paragraph)

I can definantly see some similarities between the two. Its crazy sometimes how two different things can make people feel the same way my story "Looking to share warmth" to see what I'd like to be able to do to share warmth to alleviate our respective pains

Man, I know how you feel. I am completely out of control as well. <br />
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I am so sorry you are experiencing feelings similar to mine. I hate this disease.

I hate it too.

Yeah. I realize "positive" thinking is needed and I need to try and practice more of it. Sadly, my "positive thinking" now centers around getting US Disability, which, in turn, is not a truly "positive" thought to me. Yes, it will positively keep me from going homeless and that is very positive, but I will still have to live with this disease, sit in my apartment all alone, realize that I am not working as an engineer, realize that I have lost my academic knowledge, and realize that I have family that will never understand my illness because they don't have the time or inclination to learn about it. Yes, I hate being negative. With that said, I just have a hard time seeing the positivity of disability when considering situations other than homeless. With that said, not going homeless is very positive. I could not survive as a homeless person. I am, in truth, a tortured person at the gripping hands of this disease.

When were you diagnosed? (If you don't mind me asking)

Just recently actually. About a week ago. And its kind of killing me.

Yeah I know how you feel. I just got diagnosed yesterday and I am not doing so well with it

You can always talk to me if you need to. Sounds like we are kind of in the same boat

Thanks. And right back at you, really.

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