Living With Schizophrenia

     I've been living with schizophrenia for seven years.  One summer day I had a female voice ask me "How are you?", no one else was in the room.  It has been non stop since then.  One day I was normal, the next day,  I was thrown into a world of chaos.  Voices came from all directions, terrorizing me.  Hallucinations, that seemed so real, were everywhere I went.  It took years for me to realize that I needed help.  When I got help, it took many medications before finding one that I could live with.  To this day, the voices are unrelenting, they are in total control of my life.  They have the power to decide how my day will go.  If they say that they are going to get me, than my day is usually filled with moments of sickness and powerlessness.  I feel unmotivated and have little energy for anything, and the worse is sleeping all the time.  When the voices decide to leave me alone, I feel more like myself, and can function normally.  It's hard not to think of them as real, because their thoughts are backed up by action.  I live everyday hoping that they will leave me alone for that day, maybe tomorrow will be better.

 

                                                               Shasta37 

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2 Responses Mar 15, 2009

Thanks for sharing your story, I suffer in the same way. I have had unrelenting schizophrenia for about four years, and major depression since i was a little boy. The combination is exhausting, but I soldier on. Some days I feel almost normal, and people seem to like me for who I have become, even though they don't really know who I am.

Thanks for sharing your story, I suffer in the same way. I have had unrelenting schizophrenia for about four years, and major depression since i was a little boy. The combination is exhausting, but I soldier on. Some days I feel almost normal, and people seem to like me for who I have become, even though they don't really know who I am.