I'm Lost In My Own Head

i have been diagnosed with shizophrenia and i am on 600mg of seroquel. I stopped taking it for about a week, because i like the feeling of mania i guess, i like not being able to sleep and staying up all night with racing thoughts, which is weird because doing this is one of thje reasons i started thearapy. I can't seem to get the voices to stop even with the medicine, they seem to be invadeing my mind and i can't ever get them to be silent. I have told my girlfriend and also my therapist that i want to take a pencil and pop my eardrums, so i could no longer hear, buit they both say the same thing it wont stop the voices because they are in my head. i want to take this time to apologize for my non punctuation, when i start writying it just all seems to come out at obnce. I also am so tired of not knowing what is really happening or not, as i sit here i wonder if i am really writing this. My family and girlfriend keep trying to get me to go some where for awhile, but i have beebn in a mental hospital twice and they just donm't understand wehat it is like there. i do feel like its all coming apart though. Well i guess i have spoke my story for now.

lostconfunsion lostconfunsion
31-35, M
1 Response Feb 22, 2010

I was on seroquel for anxiety. 50mg. I didn't know it could go as high as 600. I quit it "cold turkey" because it was giving me nightmares. You didn't have that problem?<br />
I know how it is in a mental hospital. I've gone three times. Even when I am feeling bad, I don't tell anyone because I don't want to go back.<br />
You should probably try changing your medication (with a psychiatrist, of course). I don't know much about schizophrenia. When I hear about it, I get this weird feeling. It really interests me but at the same time it scares me. Anyway, good luck. I hope you feel better.