My Story Of Schizophrenia


In December 2008 I was diagnosed with schizophrenia and spent three weeks in the mental ward at the VA hospital in Gainesville, Florida. I spent that Christmas with hysterically colorful individuals. It was a sobering experience and one that has changed my outlook on life.


Before those three weeks I was on top of the world; everything was going right for once in my life. I had just left a fantastic job and was offered an even better job in the cyber intelligence field. I believed I could accomplish anything; I was the captain of my soul. But, when the illness hit everything went down the sink. All that I had worked so hard for was never fully realized. My studies were put on hold and the job offer was ruined. Au revoir to everything.

 I believe this was a pivotal moment in the development of my personal goals. Before I had only cared about one thing and that was my ambition to succeed and in the pursuit of that goal I had abandoned the people that really matter in life. But those people that really mattered were there to help me in my time of distress. Now I still have ambition but I’m not going to abandon those who have made a difference in my life which is one reason I’ve moved back to Oklahoma. Today, I am working on my first novel and I wake up everyday knowing that I am lucky. I have a great team at the VA helping me and I am perfectly normal as long as I’m on my meds.  

 

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DustinD116 DustinD116
22-25, M
3 Responses Mar 12, 2010

I'm glad you see the positive side of it - I can't.

I really admire you.

Isn't it amazing how things miraculously come along in our lives to change our direction. I have always loved to write but just didn't have a chance often with the job I had. I was laid off at job and other than the money it was the best thing to ever happen to me. It has afforded me the opportunity to write things I want to write and not what is required for a job.