Reading
Posted July 15th, 2011 at 12:10PM
The problem is that I need to feel every tiny emotion through and I need to visualize every situation if I see and feel it all in reality. It takes to much of my energy and I'm extremely tired after it. I little bit despise those who don't read books because reading gives knowledge, improves imagination and blablabla. I know this but I can't make myself read. A book of a hundred pages makes me sick 'cos it looks too thick for me.
The other problem is that I can start reading an extremely stunning story but rapidly my interest fades away and I can close the book on the most interesting page and never return to it again.
Does anybody here have similar problems with "feeling through" and fading interest?
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Hey, I seem to have the exact same problem. I think I'm far worse off than you. I am 22 years old, and I've finished only about 7 or 8 books in my entire lifetime. Of these, 6 of them were Harry Potter books I read out of peer-pressure. I couldn't bring myself around to read the 7th one. The other one book I've read, is A Brief History of Time by Dr. Stephen Hawking when I was 14, but only because I wanted to look cool by knowing something about theoretical physics.
Since then, I've barely had enough time to read my textbooks in school and college. Reading is just way too time consuming. It feels like it takes a lot of effort, which is not worth the fun you get out of it. Sure, the books do give some tingly feelings sometimes, but it all depends on the writer's talent.
One thing I think, has helped me maintain my vocabulary is computers. I do keep reading stuff constantly on the internet, and I spend 1 or 2 hours every day reading 2 to 3 newspapers. But this severe inability to read is costing me greatly off late. My academics are plummeting every day. If I am to ever hold a job in the IT sector, I need to learn things constantly. If I am unable to do so, I don't think I'll survive...
If there's anybody out there who has any idea how I can deal with this situation, please do speak up! -
I think the way I operate is precisely opposite to you, actually. I love reading. I find it very easy to get lost in a book, and a good book will keep me entranced for hours upon hours. My mind easily conjures the images, sounds and feelings as I read, keeping me well-engaged.
I suppose that, for me, it's because I live so deeply enshrouded by my own thoughts at all times that the transition from real life to book is as simple as dreaming...I'm afraid, however, that means I don't have much advice to give in this regard. -
2divyanthj
You say read internet articles, maybe you get enough information from other sources and that's why you don't need books. Can it be this way?
2TamedRebelSoul
I use " to live in books" earlier. I mean I could stop reading for a while only to eat something and do other physically necessary things. So I can say I understand what you are talking about. I wish I could return to that state times... But I read poetry - usually it's Russian poetry of the Silver age (beginning of XX century), may be it's because the poems are pretty short =) -
Don't be ashamed just cuz you can't sit down and read a 100 page book. I used to think, why can't I do that too. The answer is simpler than you think; you're just not interested in it. You don't just have to read a novel, or a short story to gain knowledge or keep up with the world. There's plenty of other avenues for that like, newspapers, magazines, the INTERNET. Don't feel ashamed dude.
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I like the adventures in books and all that. I am a writer too so naturally I love to read. For the longest time I had a hard time because I felt like the words were all jumbled together and they would move around. It was almost as if my own brain was trying to make it so I couldn't read, like it was giving me a hard time on purpose. This was well before I was diagnosed.
Anyway, and I hope this doesn't come across the wrong way but recently i've been using reading glasses (+1.00 the lowest one you can buy). Although my eye sight is just fine, said the optometrist, the glasses magnify the page (obviously) and separate the words better. Because my Schizotypal brain isn't always present, I feel that the slight magnification helps my eyes make up for my brain's distance. It makes things more clear and separate, easier to read and to maintain focus.
So yes my eyes are fine, but the glasses help my brain focus at least more consistently. It is still expected that my thoughts go on three to four tangents per page, but that's better than it used to be.
Hope that helps.
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