Ocd-like Schizotypal Disorder

Hi, I have this paranoia that my thoughts can influence things. And this stresses me out, cause I believe that my thoughts can cause bad things to happen to other people. In addition to this, I also have weird feelings about how I write or type something on paper can affect things in the outside world, probably through my obsessive thoughts or feelings. For instance, I don't like writing letters over the margins or if I have phrased a sentence a certain way, some times it feels "wrong" and gives me "bad feelings", and these "bad feelings" can perpetuate the intrusive thoughts that I am paranoid can harm people.

The problem is, I am not 100% sure if it's not true, because sometimes it seems that my thoughts do influence things. And even if it is just me interpreting things wrongly, I feel like I can't take any chances. I have an interest in and believe in paranormal stuff, cause I have heard a lot of ghost stories on TV and from different people, so I'm not entirely sure what is possible and what is not. However, this OCD is interfering with my life and causing me to become behaviourally inhibited.

I have always felt somewhat different to people. When I was a kid, I used to be paranoid that everyone at school was reading my mind. Though I have now grown out of that stage, the schizotypy/OCD just seems to take new forms.

This is causing me anxiety and I also get anxiety over other things. I feel like the stress is starting to get to me, and I will sometimes just lay down on the carpet in my room when I feel tired and overwhelmed by everything. I am just wondering if anyone has had any similar experiences and what you would advise me to do.
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1 Response Jan 5, 2013

Nicely written. It makes me wonder: How do we keep our identity as a schizotypal when the things we "oddly" take interest in become mainstream? Think about all of the paranormal TV shows that have appeared in the last 10 years. Now we have the "Long Island Medium" who claims spirits talk to her, before that John Edwards who claimed he was also a psychic. I'm not saying I'm proud of having StPD, but maybe we aren't so unusual after all.

I see what you mean. To be honest, I think there is a lot of BS out there. I think some of my problems are BS as well, but I think there may be something there. The more I thought about it, I realised that, if it did exist, the matter of ESP/paranormal stuff/etc. probably wouldn't be very simple. For instance, some houses seem to be haunted and some are not, so it's hard to decipher how the paranormal and telepathy stuff actually works, but I believe it does follow certain rules that we don't know about.