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I Met Ya-'hwey..

To all that read this,

Where do I start, how about I just focus on the actual event because if I disclose everything around it I'll be writing this for days, if not weeks or even months. What I need to tell you all though is some of the circumstances and structures I grew up with.

I was raised in the Morman religion and by the time I was baptised at 8yo I had a firm belief of what the world was.  Almost all of that has been deconstructed now, though some things from then hold firmer than ever.  I am gay, didn't want to be and I tried to change how and who I was.  I prayed, I tried blocking it all out, ect.. No luck at all. Then I tried to proove it all wrong, for years I tried, with little success.

Fast forward to 26yo. I came out 2 years before this and started my first relationship, lasted about 18 months and ended very badly. My world seemed to have come crashing down and I hit rock bottom. I started to think back to GOD and what I had done. By this time I had tried to kill myself, been in a gay relationship, stolen things from shops in my adolessence and all number of things I could think of as sins. I was certain that GOD hated me. And crying inside, howling to myself and thinking that I'm not even sure who, how or what GOD is. What I was sure of though was the intension of my thought. I was meditating and praying without cease to good, holy, love, light and so on, thinking if there is a GOD, he could power through all of this noise in my head and in my life and break through to me.

That's when I was taken. That's the only way I can put it because that is what happened. I was in bed when I heard a voice, loud and clear just say "Thankyou." I was startled and then I felt as though I was taken over. I was wide awake, becalmed at first, relaxed even, until I started to be moved physically.  Now I'm frightened, I started to shake and I could not speak (I wanted to scream for help.). I was moved slowly at first and I was going faster and faster, so fast I could not see where I was going, but I could feel the wind rush by me at such speed that it was impossible to breathe while looking forward.

Then I stopped. Standing bare foot on loose rocks on what seemed to be a mountains side. Then I realized that there was a light in the distance ahead of me, and after the wind and speed I just traveled I found it hard to focus for a few seconds (more than 30, less than a minute). Then as I tried to focus more I became even more frightend than I was already (I still couldn't speak) as i thought could this be something to do with GOD. And then I remembered what I was thinking earlier "if there is a GOD, he could power through all of this noise in my head and in my life and break through to me." and I could make out a small tree in the light and then I noticed a bright light with an outline of a person comming around from behind it. At this point I wanted to hide, run, get out of there as I was feeling very insufficiant, but I was froze still and bolt upright. And he spoke "I DO NOT HATE YOU." so loud that the rocks I was standing on shook and he almost deaffend me and I was sure that I was dead now. But, he followed what he said above, this time speaking so softly and gentley "I love you, as I love all my children. No more, no less, each the same", this whole time talking he walked toward me but his feet did not touch the ground and when he was directley in front of me he stated "Do not be afraid, I am the light and life of the world, the beginning and the end, the alfa and the omega, the sun, I am Ya-'hway." and he spoke very calmly and he touched me on my right side near my lowest rib, where he touched it burnt me but I was strangely calm now and didn't care for pain that I felt. Then I felt a great sence of knowlage and what seemed to be his love for all that is.

I will not go more into what was told to me or what I saw and felt after the above. Suffice to say, he took me back to my bedroom and I got back into bed and he spoke words over me that I could not understand.

In the morning I felt tired and I thought that I must have gone mad. I got up and went to the toilet, to my fright there was a mark right where he touched me and it hurt, rather a burning feeling. The mark lasted 3 days.

This, what I have written above happened about 8 years ago. And in all the time that has passed, I am only sure now that I'm not mad and wasn't then. But my view of the world had changed and keeps changing since then.  There were no drugs or anything of the sort involved.

I don't know what you may make of what happend to me there, but it happened and I am telling the truth. All I hope is that I will feel his love again.

Thankyou for reading.

BenderBoy BenderBoy 36-40, M 6 Responses Sep 17, 2009

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i believe u and i was not religious til i had an event xx
i believe now xx

Wow, I believe you. I am usually skeptical about these things, but my spirit recognizes this and although I haven't seen the Father's face, I have felt his presence several times and have seen his light when I was heart-broken. Thank you for sharing this. I love reading stories of people who have experienced God first-hand, especially about how loving he is. I am just learning to accept myself in Christ and it really warms my heart to know God talks to his people, especially the brokenhearted. I feel so happy for you and I love you. I hope I can see God soon. I would love to see our father.

I believe you 100%, and i have had many experiences with God, which I will share in a different forum. Have you had any experiences with God since then, or was it a one time thing?

I love your story so much I had to come back and I totally believe you that this really happened to you . I had God touch me on the shoulder once and his hand was as big as a frizbie and I will never forget the feeling!! You know when it is God don't you? You know it was God and Jesus and the holy spirit everything you saw is scriptural and in the bible may I suggest you read about Gods presence in the bible I BELIEVE YOU WILL RECIEVE MORE REVELATION-gospel of John, book of acts and see how God talks to his people through spiritual experiences-dreams visions angels-read the last chapters of revelations about the kingdom of God--Good reading and God Bless you!! Renee

I really liked the way you explained that God is always seeking us but we seldom give God permission to take us unto himself. Most of the time Religion and the cares of the world isolate us from God but we need to allow God to break through all the noise and just take us.



Although not quite so dramatic, I had a very similar experience when I was around 35 yr old. I was losing my job with no prospects of getting another and was also on the verge of a breakdown. I gave my will over and just like you I felt a presence come over me and was left with the feeling that everything was going to work out just right. IT DID! I am now 66 yr old and trust God every single day. I tell my friends that I can no longer BELIEVE in God. When they gasp, I tell them belief in God is only required from those who never met God. I have met God and I have no doubt whatsoever that LOVE is there for me all the time. I just need to accept it.

Wow... You're story moved me to tears... I don't think you are going mad... I believe you... maybe the mark was to show you that you weren't just dreaming...

u must be dreaming

Thank you that is amazing.