I cannot get a hold of my emotions. I feel trapped and vulnerable. My friends hate me, my family hates me. I hate myself. I have panic attacks often and I think I am crazy. I wish I was not alive but I would not kill myself. Its something I think about often but I'd never have the balls to do it. I am going to a therapist but I do not talk about the root problem and she says that is the only way to figure this out. The problem is I have no idea what the root problem is. I have no idea what she wants me to say. I have no motivation and could never see myself being successful. I do not enjoy anything anymore and I smart off to people often. I hate myself. I do not wish to be miserable forever. I want help but it seems out of my reach.
emilyclaire85 emilyclaire85
18-21, F
1 Response Aug 20, 2014

I don't hate you. Message me, I've helped a lot of people through this.