I Can't Believe There Are So Many Of Us

I'm so surprised to see how big this group is. I thought it was just me in this world who is too worried about being around people.
When I was younger I always love the company of friends. I hang out with a group of classmates and a big number of friends. And then when I got older, things has changed. I would completely shy away from people. I would hang out in front of my computer alone and see if my online friends are around.
Honestly, this whole thing, I find myself so pitiful, doing this. I feel like my life is a waste when I can be doing something else better than just writing this. 

I am frustrated in a way. I don't like this so-called social anxiety and I don't even know how I turned out to be like this. I know I am not a boring person. 
It's just sad that I let this whole thing take over me. 
Life is good, I am so blessed with so many good things in life. And I hate to say this, I have social anxiety for nothing. I don't deserve this.
I know, I don't.
arianne19 arianne19
36-40, F
3 Responses Jul 12, 2010

Oh thank you, dear. I really appreciate your open hands and just being there. I'm sure there is hope, I try to take one step at a time and learn to accept myself more. <br />
Hope your week is good!

I FEEL THE SAME WAY. you're not alone. I've missed out on so much in my life because of the setbacks of social anxiety. Missed out on graduation back in high school, lost friends and four jobs. It's debilitating. It's not fair. I am here if you ever need to vent or someone to talk to. xx

I FEEL THE SAME WAY. you're not alone. I've missed out on so much in my life because of the setbacks of social anxiety. Missed out on graduation back in high school, lost friends and four jobs. It's debilitating. It's not fair. I am here if you ever need to vent or someone to talk to. xx