People Are Unforgiving And Critical By Nature
I have it too. I'm extremely shy around people I don't know very well. I'll get these... voices I guess you can call them... these thoughts that sound like the people I'm around and they all say bad things about me... "Oh look at her, what a freak" just critiquing me on everything I do. I walk down the street and I feel like everyone is just staring at me. Picking me apart with their eyes. Talking about me behind my back. I've heard so many people talk about other people behind their back and I know that they must be talking about me in the same way. Unforgiving. Deep down they want to destroy me. They know how to do it.
I don't go out much anymore. I don't talk on the phone a whole lot. Small talk is impossible. "So, what do you do for fun?" I don't know. I am a boring person. You know it, so don't ask me.
I have depression and that aids it I guess. Another thing is the way my mother treated me growing up. She verbally abused everyone in her life. For me, it hit hard. Constantly being told that you are a worthless piece of sh*t, wh*re, lazy, b*tch, bag, mistake, hellion, wishes that I were never born... and many other things from as soon as I learned to understand language... I guess it will take a toll on you.