I Think I Have Found The Answer?I have always just known deep inside there is something wrong with me. I used to have this best friend, super outgoing and chatty, and she would literally speak for me. She ditched me though about a year ago :( She was the only only person i could and would talk to. I didn't manage to make any more friends, i have always been quiet, but recently a bit depressed too because of having heaps of other health problems. I got branded at school as the girl who barely speaks and people started calling me 'anti-social' 'stuck up' and 'rude' and i believed them until a few days ago, when looking on youtube i randomly came across vids of people talking about having social phobia/anxiety. It was like they were describing me EXACTLY. I mean i can't put my hand up in class because i'll get the answer wrong, i can't ask for help because i'll seem stupid. Voicing my opinions? Nope. Approaching people and talking to them? Nope. Extra-curricular activities? Nope Nope Nope! We have a presentation next thursday? I think i'm ill that day. It is your birthday? Oh i think i might be busy sorry. I can't even walk somewhere without checking i am doing it right, and i really hate people looking at me writing or reading or eating or drawing. If someone is talking or laughing near me i assume they are laughing at me.
If I don't have Social Anxiety I would be really really shocked, but i wanna be sure. Anyone want to chat? How do you cope? Thanks for reading!
LooosingMyMind 13-15, F 3 Responses 0 Apr 18, 2012