It's Not Easy
I've been treated for depression and anxiety in the past but I have no doubt that my inability to socialize with others causes me the most distress. When I'm feeling down I really don't wanna talk to anyone. I feel like I have nothing good to add and that I'm gonna end up making a fool out of myself.
Lately I've been thinking about anger alot. When I'm anxious I get alot of andrenaline in my belly. It feels like butterflies and I wonder how much this plays with my emotions? It's like the "flight or flight" system is engaged but it really need not be. When I feel like this I think it's natural for me to be on edge. I think I feel like others are gonna pick on me and I'm trying to protect myself. It's very difficult and confusing when I feel like this. There's alot of anger and alot of guilt. It's not easy.