Life Is Painful

yes. I have social anxiety disorder.
I cannot bear to hear someone say no to me. So i am afraid to ask for help. Afraid to ask a favor, afraid to command my subordinates.

I cannot argue with anyone, lose everytime, so i just avoid them.

I am afraid to talk coz if someone opposes me i feel too embarassed to respond.

I don't speak much, people think am dignified, but they dont know the truth.

When anyone comes home, my first instinct is to run or hide, talking to guests is stressful, i feel m going to make a fool of myself....

I can go on n on..

Life s too stressful.

Working is too stressful. I have to command subcontractors, talk to clients, attend meeting,all of which is stressful.
How can u live in peace when ur afraid of talking, being seen,when u tremble in a group of 3 people or more.

Sigh !
rabinjackman rabinjackman
26-30, M
2 Responses Jan 11, 2013

It still amazes me when I read a story like yours, because for so long I thought I was alone and that no one understood. Now I know there are others like me, and it's comforting (to a degree). Comforting, but never-the-less, continues to be painful. I want to congratulate you on your successes in life, despite the social anxiety! I understand how difficult it's been and the daily struggles you face.

i know how u feel. i have some form of social anxiety. i hope u feel better. i am here if u need a friend.