I Dont Feeel Normali dont have a peer group and spend most of my time with my family im new to online support and hope you can help me feel less alone
the world feels like it happens around me like im a spectator. i feel like there is a connection missing or something i have no confidence and low self esteem and worry over everything.
i had to check my profile three times to make sure i couldnt be identified
i find it very difficult meeting new people and ask my family if the person i am meeting has been warned i have to think through whatever i say to them several times and it still comes out wrong
it seems like everybody else is fine and they always know what to say what is and isnt funny i try very hard to be friendly and helpful i believe in fairness and i try to be caring but i just feel like it doesnt matter what i do
im working with some very strong personalities at the moment and find i am getting deeper and deeper inside myself i dont seem understand their humour or their coping strategies and feel isolated i brush things off alot because i dont want to make trouble or make things worse living day to day at the moment smoking so much and drinking too much coffee trying to keep up
anybody else out there like me?