I Want To Be Normal And Have Great Life.I can't go to school because I'm scared the teacher will bring attention to me and the other students will call me dumb if I don't understand the question and have a panic attack if they stare at me. My grandma's boyfriend who I consider the father figure in my life just doesn't understand that & says that I will end up like my mother whose an addict without her grade 12, he also wants me to get my first job but the thought of messing up in front of everyone and people getting mad at me frightens me.
My family just doesn't understand that I want to do good in life but I just can't leave my house without being nervous or having a panic attack. They blame my grandma. Everyone blames her.. teachers, family, her boyfriend etc. She is actually the only one the really understands & it pains me to see people blaming her... I just wish I was normal.
I don't really leave the house or have friends anymore and I'm scared that it is gonna to get worse and my life will be terrible if I don't go to school or get a job.
I want to know that they're are people with social anxiety that have great lives that have overcome their fears of interacting with people...
xBaybeeJay 13-15, F 2 Responses 3 Jan 29, 2013