I Am Afraid of People...

So I was diagnosed with social anxiety when I was 17 and I thought it had gone away by now. I have recently found myself worrying about people judging me, looking at me, talking about me. I cannot describe it, but I am so afraid people look down on me. I am going to college and I work, but somehow believe this does not satisfy people. I am so scared of what people think of me, so scared that I avoid a lot of social interractions. Blah, this is driving me miserable...any coping mechanisms that are beneficial to people? Please, someone help me.

mnb06070 mnb06070
18-21, F
3 Responses Oct 9, 2008

I feel the same way you do. Since I started college a month ago, I've been feeling like everybody has been talking about me behind my back and everyone thinks I'm weird something. I feel so paranoid. I hate it.<br />
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Well, this is how I cope with it:<br />
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1) I talk to my boyfriend about my problems and he really helps me out. <br />
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2) I just opened up to my best friend about my problems and she was very understanding.<br />
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3) I write and blog to let my bad feelings out. Also, talking to other people with social anxiety helps a lot, because they really understand you. You don't have to feel different or weird around them, because they will just get you. :)<br />
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4) Since I live here in the dorms, I find it easier to just leave and avoid the people here all together. But then again, because of that, I haven't made any friends. So that might not be good advice. <br />
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5) Listen to your MP3 pla<x>yer!!! That helps me to not listen to my thoughts. Listen to songs that make you feel good. I listen to: Christina Aguilera (Beautiful, Soar, Keep Singin my song) and Fat Boy slim (That old pair of jeans). They make me happy.<br />
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6) See a therapist and take medication. I'm gonna start seeing one in a week and a half. I'll tell you how that goes if you like.<br />
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So there. That's how I cope. :) I took like 10 minutes writing this so you better appreciate this. :)

I have been to therapy, had different medications, and have been to mental institutions 10 times, but it doesn't really seem to go away. I'm wondering if it ever does fully go away or if I just need to learn how to cope better?

Find yourself a crazy fun outgoing friend and let them talk you into all the things you might not normally do. (legal)<br />
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Toilet paper a friends house... Run through the park at midnight...<br />
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or hang around a Sailor...<br />
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Good luck sweetie!