I was not a normal teenager. I was terrified when I was forced to go to public places alone. Anytime I was told to go grocery shopping or buy lunch for myself, I got this feeling of overwhelming anxiety. These everyday things were probably stupid to be afraid of from a normal persons perspective. I did not go out as a teenager. I stayed inside as much as I could to avoid socializing. A few years have gone by and I turned 18 a few months ago. It may seem dumb to you but I'm so ******* proud that I can go shopping without freaking out. I can go to the mall and not walk around in fear of other people. Today, I went to church alone and I loved it. I got lunch by myself and enjoyed it. I'm becoming a braver person and facing my social anxiety head on. I'm done staying at home all the time because I don't wanna be around other people. Maybe not everyone is judging and even if they are, who cares?
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4 Responses Jan 18, 2015

Yayyy for you, I get social anxiety from crowds >---😊---< .

Hold your head high and be proud. To have accomplished this by yourself is awesome. I know exactly how you feel as I am dealing with similar things, though you should be proud to have dealt with this so well by yourself.

I'm on a trip and yesterday I did this! I went to museums and restaurants alone and just experienced the city. It was just liberating to be out and about somewhere new even though I had to force myself to do it. I still have a hard time talking to people which pairs badly with my poor hearing. This super nice waitress was trying to be nice to me and I know I probably came off as dismissive :(. I could tell she felt bad about it but Idk how to get back out there yet and feel comfortable with full on conversations. I have a thing about eating in front of others as well so the whole experience was surreal. It helped a lot being in another city. It was like being able to step outside of myself for a while.

I suffer from social anxiety too. For you to be able to do that and not be in fear is great. I still have a lot of anxiety but I can go out more.