I Don't Have a Job

My social anxiety is so great that I have never had a job. I just can not deal with people. I'm not good at talking, or initiating conversation, through I try to. It always ends badly. I never know what to say, or how to act "normal." I've been made fun of a lot, I don't think people in general are nice at all. I've been judged a lot, just tired of dealing with people really. I'm hoping in college I can find a nice quiet job where I can work by myself, like in the library.

Readerblackchic Readerblackchic
18-21, F
3 Responses Jun 2, 2009

I haven't held down a fulltime job in almost a year and I'm 30 so don't feel bad. I take Klonapin for Anxiety.

I feel the same way. I did do well at college but because of not knowing what I wanted to major in for so long I went around to many different colleges. Now I need more credits in order to graduate, can't get a student loan, and can't afford to go back. I am jobless at the moment too. I hated the people at my last job because they always made me feel inadequate by jumping on every mistake I made. I sometimes wish I didn't have to go out in public at all. I hate speaking in front of people and never know how to start much of a conversation.

I also do not have a job because of my social anxiety. Although I did hold a job for a few years. It was at an animal shelter. I have to take tranquilizer just to go to town to do my weekly shopping. I was diagnosed with agoraphobia. Don't worry about what other people say. Just remember it is hard for other people to understand what they don't go throuhg on a daily basis. Only you can make youself feel worthless..or worth while for that matter.