I Wish For A Friend

HELLO...MY NAME IS DOTTIE...I'VE BEEN MARRIED FOR ABOUT 32 YEARS.  I  HAD MANY FRIENDS DURING MY CHILDHOO AND TEENAGE YEARS.  I WENT TO NURSING SCHOOL AT THE AGE OF 23.  I MARRIED AT AGE 25 AND HAD MY CHILDEN AT AGES 27, 28, AND 30. 

MY CHILDREN ARE ALL GROWN NOW AND HAVE HAD MANY TROUBLESOME TIMES..AND I ALONG WITH THEM.  I HAD A FEW FRIENDS DURING MY TWENTIES BUT ONE MOVED AWAY AND THE OTHER WAS SO MENTALLY ABUSIVE I ENDED THE RELATIONSHIP.

I WORK FULL TIME AT NIGHT AS A RN ON A PEDIATRIC UNIT.  I HAVE MANY AQUAINTANCES BUT NO CLOSE FRIENDS.  I FEEL EMPTY AND ALONE.  I FIND MYSELF AGGRESSIVE AT TIMES WITH TOTAL STRANGERS.  I WOULD LIKE A FRIEND TO CONFIDE IN AND GO OUT WITH ONCE IN A WHILE. I LIVE IN THE SAME HOUSE WITH MY DAUGHTER AND HER FAMILY.  MY HUSBAND SLEEPS IN A DIFFERENT PART OF THE HOUSE AND I RARELY SEE HIM.  IF I DO, WE SAY NOTHING TO EACH OTHER. 

I SOMETIMES WONDER WHY I WAS PUT ON THIS EARTH.

ANY ADVICE OR SUGGETIONS WOULD BE COMPLETELY APPRECIATED.

PEACE, DOTTIE.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Dottiedsl Dottiedsl
56-60
2 Responses Mar 15, 2010

Hi Mitch...I would like to hear from you. I am very lonely..and don't know where to go from here.<br />
I work and come home. This is my life. I see my children and grandchildren...but I need more.<br />
I think you probably do too.<br />
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Please write again.<br />
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Much Peace,<br />
<br />
Dottiedsl

I find this sad but empathize with you as i too have been married for 35 years and feel alienated from my wife who has had a good life but feels there isso much she has missed out on. I get very little response or sexual gratification these days. She has her life and i have mine and they sometimes co-incide. <br />
Feel free to contact me if you have something specific on your mind