Avoiding And Being Afraid

Yes, most of it is in my head. Thank you for understanding how it is for me. The people I knew/know did take advantage of me at times, I was always nice and tried to make everyone happy, but I didn't get what I wanted and needed in return, so I stopped communication with them. I like my alone time, so it isn't that bad, but I just see how people, family members, are judging me, how I am always with myself, why am I not with my friends... I had those friends for a very long time, and I suck at making friends in person, so it is quite difficult for me to build a new group of friends. There are some cool people who I did enjoy hanging with, but all of my friends knew each other, and always, if I just wanted to be with the nice ones, the douchebags get invited, wherever we go. Because they aren't boring, I guess. :/ So here I am, without real life friends. I have made a few friends online, yes; good friends on EP. And the person I love is actually my best friend, so it is a trying time, because I feel good whenever I am around her.

Errr...I don't feel like getting into it right now. Long story about everything. But I don't lie on EP.

The quote is there more like an inspiration, on how to change my silly ways. I should be offering some inspirational advice right about now. Hmmm... people don't care much about what you do, it is how you do it, especially in school, I think. The confidence plays a big part, but being able to not be arrogant about it. You are probably like me, you don't feel confident in yourself. I guess, it is fixed best by finding the small things that make you feel embarrassed about yourself and then fixing those issues one by one. This is just a simple example: you feel embarrassed about your weight -> you workout and change that. It will skyrocket your confidence to space! I know, you have things like we all do, things that can't be changed. Make them your advantages, if that isn't possible, you just need to accept them. If people sense that you aren't comfortable with that stuff, they will take advantage. You need to feel good about yourself and you can, everyone has stuff they wish they didn't! Of course, the stuff that you like doing, that is nothing to feel embarrassed about. You are allowed to like different stuff. People respect that, when you have your own opinions, if you present them in the right way. Just following the crowd makes you boring to people, that I know. People like the ones, who have their own thoughts, in my opinion. But really, no arrogance, only confidence should be shown. Bruce Lee is awesome! Read his quotes, watch his movies, read about his achievements and skills. How he did it all. It really makes a difference. It can show you, how with a lot of hard work, you can become exactly the person you want to be! "Notice that the stiffest tree is most easily cracked, while the bamboo or willow survives by bending with the wind." ADAPT to different situations, don't be stubborn about what you do. Accept different views, but don't be afraid to show yourself! You probably knew some of this stuff already, but I am repeating it now. :) I am sure that you can find friend, who can be trusted. If you want to really trust someone, usually the "lonely" kids are really deserving of your trust, the ones with a few friends only. The popular kids fake and showoff, often gossip about their friends...that is something you really don't need. GOOD LUCK in everything you do!! ;)

Yeah! I usually don't get along with people, who are too similar. It is weird, I don't hate myself, but I dislike people, who are too similar to me. :) When I wrote this, ages ago, my feelings were a bit different and I needed someone with similar stuff going on to talk to. I talked it out and it helped. Didn't solve my issues, but it definitely helped. I could understand my problems a bit better.

Thanks for the input. You are absolutely right! But for a shy guy like me, the first step was sharing my value system with someone, who has similar beliefs. From there I could move up.

ZING!

oO This is months old! And you are just now replying haha...=P

I got rated up. I really don't know, why I hadn't replied to most of these comments. Sorry about that!

I guess, I was just avoiding and being afraid. HAHAHA!

Better grab those blankets lol and hide. I'm coming with raging bolts of thunder! :D. Well we both know commenting on replies is optional, you don't have to reply unless you feel the need. Sometimes the reply speaks for itself. ;)

That is why we are friends! ;)

Thanks for the compliment. I don't know, why I didn't reply sooner. I penned it down just for you! :)

Yeah, that's pretty much how it is. But i'm improving and adapting with the help of some philosophy, especially from Bruce Lee. :)
"Take no thought of who is right or wrong or who is better than. Be not for or against." - Bruce Lee

That is brilliant. I might have a look at some Bruce Lee quotes, I remember watching him as a child. I love inspirational quotes and people. And that one is great. I have read some of what you have written on here. I can relate to alot of it. I am new to this and it is really good to know i'm not alone in how i feel or how i think :)