My Life With Social Anxiety

I must say my life with social anxiety has been rather difficult. SAD has stopped me from finishing high-school, finding employment and having a social life that i feel good about. I mean I do have friends but only a few and it is difficult to make new ones. What makes it difficult is that I am anxious about texting and going on FB chat. I avoid doing these things quite a bit but I've been making an effort lately to at least attempt them.

I have a few jobs in my life and I excel at them typically (except Youth Care work, too much responsibility). My favourite job was McDonalds. I worked there for two years and really felt good about myself when I was there. I learned to cope a lot better and made a few friends along the way. It was an awesome job for my self esteem and I can only wish that one day in the near future, I will find something like that again.

About 6 months ago I had a breakdown and the psychiatrist I was seeing got my on disability assistance. Now I am finding it really difficult to get a job because it is just easier on me if just stay at home and let my anxieties consume. It was probably the worst thing for me to get on it because I feel i have regressed and all I keep telling myself is that I am a welfare bum.

I truly want be successful in all areas of life and I am determined to pull myself out of this funk! I'm going to do everything and anything in my power to overcome. I CANNOT live like this my whole life! I DESERVE to prosper!
PushingOn PushingOn
22-25, M
1 Response Sep 24, 2012

pushingon, sound like my 25years old son. I always tell him go for your GED, he go to classes for 2 days and stop going,he has a few jobs but for some reason he got stock delivering pizza,thanks God he called me a week ago and he has a different job that is not pizza. I love him with all my heart, he is my youngest, he has friends and always in the computer or x box he is into cars too always buying and fixing cars, his hands and clothes are always with grease,but he is a very good son, he likes helping other people too. I prey that he find a good woman one day and get married has kids and prosper like you said ,I prey for you too so you can acomplish what you said in the last part of your letter.