It has been a while since I don't do this, but I really needed to ask... Does anyone, out there, share this feelings with me?
-Feeling like I can't handle going out with friends, forcing myself to it but have 0 fun, because you just can't seem to stop being so self conscious...
-Wanting to LIVE but can't manage to relax
-Frustration before my own limits, which go as far as not wanting to go to the store because I'll get nervious and people will notice
-Sweating like a pig, and not being able to shake hands, or dance because of it...
-Is it my destiny to spend a lonely, spoiled, pathetic life, even knowing my own strengths and talents?
I mean, who the hell planned this, anyway?
-The clock is ticking, and I'm still asking myself the same questions...

Making friends is not my problem; feeling inexplicably nervious each time I spend time with them is.
Giella Giella
22-25, F
4 Responses Aug 23, 2014

Yep, I feel exactly the same. Except I haven't left the house on months. Maybe two times... Maybe!

I feel like this every day, every hour, ever second.

I feel all of that all the time. Just know that you're not alone.

I get those feelings all the time and wish more than anything that I knew how to get out of it.