Examination Of Love

hmmm *smile* I don't normally hug stranges but .. (hug) ..lol.. yes, my awakenings. It came slowly, baby steps due to , I believe, it would of been overwheming. But both of my eyes are wide open. I am just waking so.... lol.. alot of newness around. This will be the best experience.. yet! Cause I am older and wiser...lol! Thank you.

oh wow... June 4, 2011 is when I started... waking-up.

Mine was about the same time. I realized that I was in a relationship with a man that could have been the clone of my brother. It was a RUDE awakening, but awoke I did! Still an ongoing unfolding and uncovering, a discovery of who I REALLY am and was all along...it is beautiful, it is painful, it is a journey of light.

Me either (hugging strangers...though not completely true, as I hugged a very old woman in the grocery store the other day, completely out of character for my "past" self)...so, hugging may not be so bad after all. I am hopeful that with age we do become wiser. I prefer the more painful and quicker path, lol. 2 types of therapy, lots of solitude (though not isolating), and a LOT of honesty about me, and my skewed views due to the running "tapes" in my head put their by those who were supposed to value me. I'm cleaning house...tapes are being burned, what's a few (or many) scars compared to a life of blindness. As long as the scars are a tool towards wisdom rather than a reminder of a bleak past.

Being that we are humans really makes us no different than other animals so to speak, just a different species...and we ALL (species) have "instincts". I was told by someone whom I trust on a very deep level (instinctually) that if your "brain" or emotions are felt deeply when you think you are using instinct then that instinct is generally incorrect...you go with the instincts that require no additional thought...it's like "in the gut"...no ifs, and's, or but's...it is simply the instinct and not the subconscious. Use them BOTH since we as humans are supposed to use both, being that we are born with BOTH is my take on this one. I TOTALLY agree with your statement that doing away with the idea of permanent and eternal "ideas", "values" is the way to go as they feed the ego state. Ridding ourselves of this "ego" (which is an all too human attribute) is what will keep up from having psychological hurts in the first place or at least not log into them as they are incorrect and distorted views of reality being that they are in the past. Expectation is another one, and the ego is involved with that as well. Interesting how permanent and eternal values seem to be based upon "expectation". As long as we are of the ego there is no where to go but to narcissism.

that is the truth, for sure. yes, i made a choice to better myself by treating myself better!