Venting Again???

I'm just a tad bit frightened. With EP I don't have to hide every day of my life. There is no constant reminder that I'm not "normal." I am very interesting, to myself at least, but people don't get to experience the fullness of "ME" and my personality because I don't want to draw attention to myself. I find it easier to sing and speak in front of hundreds...thousands of people than I would a smaller group. I find it easier to do craaazziiii things in front of strangers than I would some one I encounter on a daily basis.
It can get very stressful sometimes doing all of this hiding. I want to cry just thinking about it, but until I'm as comfortable with myself and my feelings in public as I am when I'm writing...hiding is my only option.
I wish that there was a place I could go (not in cyberworld) and just be....me.
I'm really afraid about stepping back into reality.
Not sad, just....afraid.