I Have And Hate Strabismus.I have had two operations to align the eyes. After the op's I was to wear an eye patch for so many hours a day. As a result the eye that was operated on became the dominate eye and the other turned in slightly. Most of the time it was not noticeable. And for a few years in my late teens it was not recognized at all unless I was extremely tired or if I drank alcohol.
Now as I get older I wear glasses for slight vision correction and my eye turns in more and more each year. I hide behind my glasses and would never be seen with out them. I tried contacts so I could hide behind sunglasses but I have scar tissue in the corner of my eye and the contacts won't lay flat. You would never know at this point that I have ever had corrective surgery. Sure it was nice to be normal for a bit but now I am getting older and all I want is to age gracefully.
I avoid a camera! I avoid family photos! And I want to break down and cry when someone I am talking to across a room turns around to see if I am talking to them or some one else!!! That is the worse. I work with people everyday and I was always sociable,and outgoing but all that is slowly changing. I do not want to look anyone in the face anymore. EVER! And I do not want to meet new people.
Have you ever noticed that the stupidest characters in movies have Strabismus? Well thanks for that! It's hard for anyone to take me seriously because of this social association. Some people treat me stupid. Some don't want to look me in the face. I am highly educated but a small female with Strabismus. I never get treated like an equal.
I checked into Botox injections for this problem. Apparently this was first created for this condition. And go figure #1 I can't afford it and #2 I can't find a doctor to do it. Yes, I am that desperate to fix this issue. Doctors say another operation would be strictly cosmetic and I would have to pay out of pocket PLUS it might pull the eye in the other direction. *Throwing hands up in the air* I am over it all.
Well, Thanks for listening. I will step out of the pity pool now.
Glad I found this group!
Krolie 36-40, F 5 Responses 0 Jun 19, 2012