Not In Control

You can go back to see your doctor anytime and just say that it's getting worse instead of better.. then maybe your doc will prescribe meds if they think that could help (often they'll prefer to not precribe meds as these always have side effects, including possibly making feelings worse before they get better). ... but also in counselling sometimes because you have to talk about your feelings and problems that actually makes you feel worse at first too.. but it could be worth sticking with it for a while as in time it may start to help. .. Don't forget you can see your doc, even get a same day appointment if you call (or call in) early and let them know you need a quick word with them. ... I hope things get better for you really soon, I know the sorts of feelings you're talking about as I'm like that most of the time myself.. You can get better though, lots and lots of people suffer with deporession and suicidal feelings at some time in their lives and it isn';t something you have to put up with and there is help available, you can recover from it and feel happy again I promise. (hugs) take care, and write again soon- let us know how things are going. - Hobo