I'm always so down on myself constantly. No matter what I do, it could be better. I sing, play instruments, draw, paint, play sports...all of which I excelled. To most people, I would look successful, but I was forced to do them all growing up since I had "natural ability" or "talent". I was scouted, showcased.....but when you put yourself out there, there is bound to be a person one day that absolutely hates you. Hates your work, hates your voice, hates your face....so I hide it. I hide it all and I sit here. I stopped singing, I stopped painting, I stopped dancing, I stopped playing....I stopped it all. And I live a miserable dead end government job existence and that's ok....I just play it safe.
sweetloaf sweetloaf
22-25, F
Sep 1, 2014